Time: Start of Fall, September 2010
Contact with the being I know as Ishtar "Mother of the Architects"
After several nights of intense lucid dreaming, I decided not to attempt anything and to stay in my body. I lay in bed and began to rest with simple breathing exercises, centering myself and moving my consciousness into my center. I started to drift off into a deeply restful state of "no mind" and then fell into deep sleep.
I was awoken by what felt to be a vibration around my body. I found myself face-first in my bed, which was unusual since I normally sleep on my right side with my right hand under my head, a position conducive to dreaming. I couldn't move a single muscle or open my eyes. I was in a total state of paralysis but not in a fearful state as one might usually experience during paralysis.
Although I couldn't move, I could see in my mind's eye a full 360-degree view of my room. Even though my eyes were closed, it was as vivid as if they were open. Inside my room was filled with what looked to be a smoky mist with blue and green light emanating through it. I could see five beings standing around my bed in what seemed to be a specific pattern, with their hands outstretched towards me. I noticed particularly that it was their right hands out, while their left hands lay beside their slender bodies.
I couldn't utter a single word or phrase; I wanted to scream but could only scream inside of myself. I knew it wasn't coming out physically. This scream was only confusion, and I became more confused and frightened as they stood there, seemingly holding me down with some telekinetic force. As I demanded they show themselves, I continued to fight, trying to move and demanding they stop.
In the middle of the group stood a much taller feminine, very slender, and beautiful being. Completely inhuman yet with humanoid features such as a head, two arms, two legs, and typically bipedal in nature. Although the body was very slender, its feminine shape almost seemed to be more projected energetically than physically seen. She stood about six feet tall from my perspective and looked like a smooth and fair-skinned "grey" alien, though I knew this was not the case; it's just an easy description. Despite how alien she appeared, I started to become calmed by the telepathic voice I heard communicating to me in my head.
"It's ok, dear one. We love you... We come from love."
Now, in no way, shape, or form did I feel love from being held down against my will as I perceived it. But as she stated this in a soft, beautiful, calming voice, I started to feel warm energy rush into my field.
The others stood around me still, holding their hands outright. They all looked much shorter, maybe about four feet tall at the tallest, and had a slight blue tint to their skin, while the taller female in question was much taller and silver in color, yet still had hues of blue and light green coming through. This could have been due to the energetic colors in the room.
As I relaxed and stopped fighting to get loose, I felt her enter my head as if she was downloading information. I could see diagrams and schematics of cells going through mitosis, showing the birth, death, and rebirth again of the smallest microcosmic atom. In this process, it was almost as if she was looking for something, but I couldn't tell due to the influx of images and patterns that I was seeing being transmitted and downloaded into me. I saw full universes being birthed into existence, destroyed, and remade again.
During the transmission, I kept hearing a whisper coming from another layer of the telepathy being sent, saying, "Ishhhhtaaaar" in a long, whisper-like fashion. This overlaid the images that I was seeing.
This became so intense that I remember my body starting to feel as if it was shaking. I came back to view the five beings around me again, with the tallest one standing in the middle of the formation around me. The ambient echo of "We love you, we come from love" kept repeating as the vision started to diminish and the view of the room took over. As they stood there, the repeating of the phrase continued.
In front of the tall being, whom I now considered Ishtar (after being shown how and why in the visions), formed a rotating 8-pointed star or interlocking squares which rotated counterclockwise in this green and blue light at her chest center. This symbol seemed to collapse the experience as they all disappeared into it, as if being sucked into a portal.
As they disappeared, I was able to move, and I "woke" up. I opened my eyes and shot up out of bed as if it were a dream. However, there was still a mist of smoke in my room and a lingering smell that I couldn't place. It was almost like sulfur but had a slight floral hint to it.
I sat up, staring at the settling smoke and disappearing mist in amazement. Then, off to my left, on the side of my head, I felt three beeps form a triangle. I could feel these beeps and sounds as if they were touching me on the left side of my head, physically forming a triangle. The smoke dissipated instantly after the beeps went off, and I felt a sense of relief as the smell and energy in the room shifted back to normal. I grabbed my journal and wrote down the experience as clearly as I could.
This would not be the last time I would be contacted this way.